I can’t still stop crying while I am typing this entry, read HERE to know why. I felt so useless because I can’t do nothing of what my husband going through. All I wish is to be on his side at this moment but its impossible because Its almost midnight here.

I am not use of sleeping alone, and tonight I have to be strong and trying my best not to get afraid for I am all alone here. Well my fault though because I refused when my SIL told me that she is going to pick me up and let me stay there with them for tonight. My reason is that for sure I wont be able to sleep either I am there with them or staying here in our house coz thinking of the problems that we are facing right now will surely give us a sleepless nights. I know this only a trials and we can over come all this problems.